‘The most important thing is to be true to yourself, however you feel, and not try to feel or behave differently because you think you should, or someone has told you how you must feel. But do think about it. Unexamined feelings lead to all kinds of trouble.’

Garth Nix – Clariel: The Last Abhorsen


I attended a close friend’s graduation yesterday and a few thoughts popped into my mind.

Firstly, I was so filled with friend pride. This is different from parental pride or even familial pride; it was quite interesting. I knew the amount of effort she put into her studies so to see them come to fruition in her graduation was so satisfying! I am proud of her achievements and what she has accomplished, and wish her all the best in the future.

Secondly, it encouraged me to work harder in my own studies. I am in the last year of my university and up till now I have still only been putting in 60/70% effort maximum. I know that I want to attend my own graduation in July and to experience that same joy, and also for my family to be proud of me.

Thirdly, I felt a little older and a little wiser. Graduating from university is a big step in a¬†young adult’s life, and often it is a great milestone before entering the workplace. Graduating with an undergraduate degree is often the end of a person’s studying days, it is like the end of an era. It signifies a move onto bigger and better things.

Hopefully keeping these things in mind will motivate me to work harder in my final year, and to envision my very own graduation day.


It seems to be that only when I am ill do I appreciate my usual good health. For the past week or so I have had a sore throat coupled with intense coughing, and more recently aches and pains, as well as general cold symptoms.

These symptoms normally come about around the last couple of weeks of my university timetable (November/December). To me they signify stress, a weakening immune system and buckling under university pressures. Hopefully I can recover before doing my exams!


‘Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you’re here.’


Everything is in God’s hands; so why should we need to worry? Entrust all to Him.


Occasionally I wander into a book store and end up leaving with a book or two.

Yesterday I went into the small second hand book store on Buccleuch Street in Edinburgh, and came out with a book. Though it was not one on my list of ‘to-reads’ it was one that I thought would be an interesting read as I have watched the film.

Battle Royale by Koushun Takami.

I look forward to starting this after I have finished a couple of my other books!


‘There is no final, satisfying way to balance our need to be known with our need to be alone. The balance is always uncertain and provisional; it’s always a matter of dissatisfaction, give-and-take, and sacrifice… It’s up to each of us to balance the risks and rewards – to trade, in right proportion, loneliness for freedom, explicability for mystery, and the knowable for the unknown within ourselves.’

Joshua Rothman – Virginia Woolf’s Idea of Privacy