22:13

This morning at 04:15 my brother came into my room and woke me up. He was complaining of a sharp abdominal pain on his right side (just under his ribs). He said he had phoned an ambulance and they would be there within an hour. I quickly snapped out of my dozy state and got ready.

We waited for 30 minutes and there was no sign of the ambulance. My brother was clearly still in discomfort and was resting on the sofa. Whilst we were both relatively calm I started getting more anxious and paced about from window to window, looking out for the incoming ambulance. At 04:50 the ambulance arrived and we went inside to get checked.

After the usual questions and checks were completed, my brother was given some morphine to ease the pain. He started to feel a bit disorientated but soon we were on the way to the hospital.

We arrived at the hospital at almost 06:00. My brother was wheeled into the hospital on a chair and we were assigned an examining room to wait. A student doctor came to do a check up but seemed very unsure of himself. Another doctor also came to look at my brother’s condition but seemed to think nothing of the symptoms and thought it not serious. We were assigned another room and paracetamol was given to help with the pain.

At around 06:30 the student nurse came back to do a blood test. He joked about missing the vein and having to repeatedly stab patients. My brother and I didn’t think it was funny given the situation. The bloods went off to be analysed and we waited for the results.

It got to 08:10 and we still hadn’t been informed of anything. My brother had fallen asleep lying on the trolley and I had dozed on and off. I also contacted our mum to inform her of what happened and stayed relatively calm so not to freak her out. The blood results came in about 08:20 and a consultant told us the blood results were normal, and there was nothing to suggest internal problems. The verdict was ‘non-specific abdominal pain’. The consultant talked us through the possible reasons for the pain and what to do if the pain recurred. At this point my brother’s pain had subsided considerably. By 08:35 he was discharged. Thank God he managed to rest more during the course of the day (as did I) and ate a little.

One of the doctors commented on how calm my brother was throughout the whole process. This also led him to believe that it was nothing serious. The whole experience was a huge learning curve for me, not only into how the medical care system works but also of how I deal with emergency situations. I kept my calm in the ambulance by reassuring my brother and also saying prayers in my heart. Had the sirens been blaring and the ambulance been going faster, I would surely have been more panicky. Luckily it was early morning and the pain was bearable.

In emergency situations always remember to be logical, prepared and informed. We both managed to stay calm, I packed some food, water and an external phone charger in my bag, and I took a photo of the medication my brother takes. Though I certainly would not like to experience the situation again I would like to think I could handle it well.

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20:31

November has always been a nothing month for me. It’s always been a month where nothing much happens, a month that I could happily skip through to get to the end of the year. However, this year it holds a dearer place in my heart.

I got promoted!

Applying for an internal position is just as nerve-wracking as an external one. I had two interviews: one with my manager and the other with the regional director for Scotland. My manager works with me on a close level so the interview was more of a detailed chat about the role and expectations. The thought of the second interview caused me to lose sleep. Having not interviewed anywhere in three (plus) years made me rusty.

I hadn’t even thought about how to answer questions they might pose or how to portray myself as a passionate and driven individual. I prepared as best as I could and tried to relax before going into the room. I thought hard about the questions I was posed and collected my thoughts before giving coherent answers, expanding where necessary. I came out of the interview unsure about how it went, especially because I knew the reputation of the regional director as being quite tough. Nevertheless over a week passed and due to my manager having a sick daughter I didn’t hear anything about the job.

  Last Thursday morning I got an email from my manager (who was in a different office that day) telling me to call her as soon as I could. I automatically panicked. I thought that could only mean bad news. Imagine my relief when she told me I’d gotten the job! I had never felt such a sense of relief! It was like this huge weight lifted off my chest and I could breathe properly for the first time.

Starting in December I will become a team leader. My current team will now have me as their boss. It still feels surreal! As the youngest but longest serving member of my team the promotion came as a surprise to some. I have my reservations about leading a team of seniors but am confident that I will develop skills and grow along the way. Here’s to more happy news and memorable Novembers!

21:10

Where is 2018 running off to? As the months sprint past it seems strange to think how long a year felt back in my years of studying. Term time seemed to last forever and even the long holidays would drag out. In my working life everything seems to be going in fast forward. A Monday ends before I know it, then suddenly it’s midweek, and then somehow it’s already Friday? I find myself not having enough time to get everything done in a day. I find myself scrambling to work harder and more efficiently to fit everything in. I need life to slow down a little and let me catch up.

21:47

In the blink of an eye it is September!

July and August have flown by and the summer months are well and truly gone. The colder temperatures are back and dreary days are drawing near. Throughout the summer I celebrated my birthday and my older brother’s wedding. I also moved to the other side of Edinburgh, planned a surprise dinner for my younger brother’s birthday and gained responsibilities at work.

My days are filled with work, swimming and end with crashing into bed exhausted. My metabolism has quickened and I find myself needing to eat more often to satisfy my body’s needs. I am trying to keep to my goal of 10k steps per day, pushing myself at weekends when I rest more and do less. I work hard so I can play hard!

21:01

Scotland has been blessed with glorious weather for the past week! Sometimes the mornings start off cloudy but by lunch time the sun is out and out to stay. Sunset is anywhere between 10pm and 12am.

These longer days are tiring though. I find myself trying to keep myself awake at work as the post-lunch slump kicks in. Air conditioning pumping and fans whirring do little to keep me focused and fully awake. I try to cram more into my day so as to make the most of the good weather, but this results in extreme tiredness. Because who takes naps when it’s so sunny outside right?

As a country who seldom gets such sun, we sure do complain about the hot weather…

23:14

Does anyone else suffer from hayfever?

As much as I love that the weather in Scotland has vastly improved in recent weeks, my symptoms of hayfever have well and truly kicked in.

I simultaneously have a blocked nose where I can’t smell or taste much, and my nose runs and runs no matter how many times I blow it. I have a sore throat, dry cough and itchy eyes. I wake up multiple times in the night because I cannot breathe properly or I cough so violently that it feels like I will vomit. I have to sleep in a semi-upright position to make sure I can breathe.

Too much sharing here I know… but a struggle is a struggle. I never thought I would be wishing for gloomier days just so the pollen count will go down. Hopefully the summer months will be bearable!

21:24

Recently I drove down to Newcastle from Edinburgh for a wedding. While I have loved driving ever since my first lesson, this trip was one of the first times I had felt a sense of anxiety in my car. In my day to day life I drive a couple of times a week, mostly at the weekends and just within the city. I do my grocery shopping, I meet my friends, I drive to church and the swimming pool.

On the way back from Newcastle I encountered a diversion. This diversion was not well marked and instead of taking cars onto a different route forward, it instructed everyone to turn back and detour in the opposite direction of travel.

It was getting late, I was tired, and I was getting low on petrol. I was in an unfamiliar area on the motorway with no clear knowledge of where I should go. Instead of following the diversion back in the opposite direction, I headed onto the country roads. I ignored my GPS telling me to head back to the motorway (blocked off for roadworks) and used instinct to drive back north.

As I navigated tiny, pot-hole laden, windy lanes through fields and small towns I saw my petrol gauge dropping. Admittedly I didn’t fuel up after my drive down to Newcastle but I thought I would make it there and back on a full tank. As I drove through the countryside the sun was setting, but I couldn’t fully appreciate the splendour of the sunset colours as I was worried about getting home. I had thoughts of having to find a BnB in a small town due to getting stranded in the dark, and leaving my car at the side of the road and walking to get petrol.

Disconcerting thoughts aside, I managed to find my way back to the motorway (past the blocked off section) and made it back to Edinburgh safely. My petrol warning light came on on the stretch home! Thank God I managed to make it home safely with my friend despite the problem we encountered on the way. It’s in times like these I miss being a passenger as being a driver does take its toll on longer journeys. Thankfully I have no other long trips planned and that my sense of direction is pretty good. Everything is a learning experience though right?

21:34

Today is my WordPress anniversary! I’m not entirely sure how many years ago I started running this blog, but I am definitely proud of how far it has come. While I find myself with less words to write, I am thankful for an open yet safe space where I can share and relieve my mind.

This week of work has sped by! April has always been a ‘nothing’ month for me. In education days it was the month of Easter break and revision for exams, however now it holds no significance. Work life remains work life. As April comes to a close I wonder what the month of May will bring!