16:45

Yesterday I had the chance to catch up over dinner and dessert with a friend who I lost contact with 7 years ago. While we have seen each other in passing often over those 7 years, there was an unwritten rule that we didn’t talk to each other any more. Though there was never any verbal or written confirmation that we were no longer friends all those years ago, we both felt things had grown cold and we fell out of touch. Last night’s dinner with mutual friends allowed us to reconnect a little and to catch up on the little things. Sometimes all that’s needed is the acknowledgement that things are okay though a former friendship disappeared. It shows growth and development from both parties. What happened in the past becomes irrelevant and people are able to move on.

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22:57

I am safely back in my home town in the comforts of my childhood bedroom! The last few days have been manic with travelling, friends and visitors, and family gatherings.

I spent much of my long weekend catching up with people who I do not get to see for the majority of the year. I must have answered the, “So where do you work now?” question at least 15 times. Sometimes I feel like I have lost that connection with my friends and family back at home, however there are also times where it feels like I never left.

I spent Sunday afternoon through till Monday in the lovely city of Cambridge. A friend recently moved out there for work so a group of 10 went out there to visit and chill out. When we get together it reminds me of how much we have all grown, as individuals and together as a group. While some of us have moved away from our home towns, it is reassuring to see everyone growing and developing into self-sufficient adults in their own ways. It is comforting to know that my friends are doing well.

21:31

‘I no longer have the energy for meaningless friendships, forced interactions or unnecessary conversations.’

Joquesse Eugenia

I have learnt, as I grow older, that quantity of friendships means nothing compared to the quality of friendships. A deep rooted friendship will always trump a full room of acquaintances. After school and university the friends that remain will be the true ones, the ones not friends just because of proximity or association, but the ones that want to be.

21:45

Yesterday I travelled up to Aberdeen early in the morning to meet friends up for a catch up. We have been friends for a long time so it was really good to see each other again and to spend the day together.

I feel like I took another step into adulthood as we spent the afternoon in an establishment catching up over drinks. That to me has always inherently been an ‘adult’ thing.

I am thankful for good friends who stay in touch, and good friends who make time to see each other.

23:43

I think I have come to a point in my life in which I know exactly who my friends are and though they be few, they are the only ones I really need. In a society filled with the focus of socialising on the internet and gaining friends on ‘social’ networks, real relationships are lacking. I know who cares about my well-being, who worries when I am stressed, and who will take time out to be with me. I really am thankful for good friends.

11:41

Yes, I know I know, I said I would be on hiatus for 3 weeks and it has only been 1 week and not even half a day. But sometimes you just have to blog right?

Current emotions: pissed off, angered, and stressed.

Something which I thought was done and dusted has reared its ugly head and is now back in my life, making my every day a living nightmare. I feel like every time that I completely forget about it, something happens to intensify the situation and I get to go through the long process of forgetting again.

I am currently sat on a swing in a childrens’ park in Newcastle somewhere, apparently the movement of the swings soothes me. What happened to being a child and being so carefree? Why must we become adults and deal with problems? Sometimes I cannot wait to be older and to have my whole life put together, but on the other hand sometimes I have Peter Pan syndrome and I never want to leave childhood.

I should probably get back to where I am supposed to be before I get a telling off for fighting the system. They told us to have a quiet hour so it is their own fault that I took it literally.

01:19

That feeling when you realise a friend knows you so much more than you thought they did is so comforting. When you have never verbally told them something about yourself yet they know it from observing your mannerisms or just through interactions.

A friendship develops over time and there are both good and bad experiences which truly test a relationship. Good friends are hard to come by, but when they do you’ll feel it and years down the line you’ll still remember how you met, the first words you spoke and all that kind of stuff.

I recently attended one of my oldest and closest friend’s graduations and I have never felt so proud. To grow up together and to be able to share that moment with him was so touching, and it meant a lot to us both. We have experienced all emotions together: sadness, anger, confusion, despair, anxiety, happiness, and it all led us to the point of friendship that we are at today. Sometimes it is like he knows me better than I know myself and for that I am grateful. Sometimes just a look or a smile is enough.

I am thankful for friends and for those who make the effort with me, those who take the time to understand my personality.