23:15

Last weekend I was able to return home to visit my family for a few days. Though it was a short ‘long weekend’, it was definitely worth it to travel 5.5 hours home and back just to see them. I miss simple home comforts now and again so quick bursts of home satisfy my yearnings.

I am thankful for time with family and friends and the rare times I get to return home. It makes me cherish those times all the more.

22:57

I am safely back in my home town in the comforts of my childhood bedroom! The last few days have been manic with travelling, friends and visitors, and family gatherings.

I spent much of my long weekend catching up with people who I do not get to see for the majority of the year. I must have answered the, “So where do you work now?” question at least 15 times. Sometimes I feel like I have lost that connection with my friends and family back at home, however there are also times where it feels like I never left.

I spent Sunday afternoon through till Monday in the lovely city of Cambridge. A friend recently moved out there for work so a group of 10 went out there to visit and chill out. When we get together it reminds me of how much we have all grown, as individuals and together as a group. While some of us have moved away from our home towns, it is reassuring to see everyone growing and developing into self-sufficient adults in their own ways. It is comforting to know that my friends are doing well.

21:54

Things have been a little hectic in the last couple of weeks with friends visiting and consecutive nights out. I could feel my own emotions swelling up inside of me because I needed a period of solitude to relax and recharge.

This week has been a much needed change from previous weeks. I have spent nearly every evening at home. I actually sat down for dinner with my extended family for the first time in a while, and it was very comforting.

This weekend I will be travelling back to my home town to visit my family and friends, and to also attend my friends’ wedding. The last time I returned home was at the beginning of June before I started my working life. While I enjoy my life here in Edinburgh, there are times that I get homesick and feel very lost in my independence. When I return to my home every half a year or so, I can see so many changes. However sometimes when I return, it feels like not much has changed since I was last there.

Long weekend, here I come!

23:02

Today I travelled back to my home town on the train. Having time to be with my own thoughts for a few hours is soothing. Due to refusing to pay for wi-fi and dodgy phone/3G signal I also had a chance to catch up on some reading.

When I take public transport I like to people watch. I like constructing stories and backgrounds in my head, where people have come from, and where they are going. I like seeing the books that other people are reading, and looking at the way people dress. As the train coursed through the countryside and the different cities, it made me wonder about the lives of the people who live there.

The train pulled into each station, let people off and on, and swiftly moved down the tracks towards another city. We go through life constantly rushing from here and there, getting from A to B as quickly as possible, looking for the easiest and most efficient way. However if we stop to look at the world, we may find something more enriching.

23:40

My last post was 5 days ago… I see that my aim to keep this blog updated is not being fulfilled. It has also been a while since my last original post.

My father was in town today so we had a catch up over a sushi lunch, relaxed at home in the afternoon, had a chilled out dinner and then I took him to the train station. My father travels around the UK for his work but he is no longer based in Edinburgh so I do not often get the chance to see him. As with anyone who has moved away from home; a big city can be a lonely place. I am thankful for the relatives that I have here and also for the opportunities to spend with my immediate family.

As a teenager I always wondered what it would be like to move away from home. I pondered on how my life would be without my parents watching my every move, and not having to be bothered by my brothers. Now looking back I see that those times may have been easier, and that I should have cherished those times when my whole family was together in one household. It is funny how things change.

22:55

After ringing in the new year by watching fireworks with friends in The Meadows, we headed up to a friend’s house to play card games and Monopoly. These games ended up lasting till 4am and everyone went home joyful yet sleepy.

On Friday I travelled back to my hometown of Market Harborough to spend some time with my family and friends before returning to my studies. I got to see my two young nieces and also meet my newborn nephew today, definitely a happy moment! It was good to catch up with my cousins and friends as I have not been back in half a year. I have a family dinner tomorrow so more catch ups and laughter to come!

02:37

In 7 months I should be graduating from Edinburgh Napier University with a Bachelor of Arts (Honours) degree in Criminology. Exactly 7 months. My graduation is scheduled to take place on the dates of 7-9th July so today (8th December) marks the 7 months countdown till graduation day.

In 7 months I will be able to say I have completed my 4 years of studies at university and managed to obtain a degree. In 7 months my studying life will be over.

Recently I have found people asking me about my plans for after university. People have asked whether I will stay in Edinburgh, whether I will work in Edinburgh and whether I hope to stay in Edinburgh for the foreseeable future. Every time someone has asked me I always seem to give an unsure answer because it really is not clear where I will be after I graduate. The majority of people I have spoken to have encouraged me to stay and it is beginning to look like the most likely option for me.

Over these 3 and a half years of living in Edinburgh I have grown to love it. I have become acquainted with the busy city life and learned to live in a bustling city although I come from a small former market town. Edinburgh is no longer my second home but my first. Going home for the holidays feels like going away, and returning to Edinburgh feels like coming home. It is a strange feeling to fall in love with a city however I feel like through it I have been able to find myself, and grown into the person I truly am.

02:51

I am home! It definitely has been too long since I’ve returned (January) but the feeling I get it still the same.

The feeling of returning to something familiar. The feeling of knowing every nook and cranny, where every item has its own place, the familiarity of my own bed.

My heart is content, satisfied and most importantly, happy. Seeing my mum on the train platform waiting in the pouring rain with a smile on her face, that’s something I can’t feel in Edinburgh.