22:07

Apologies for not posting in a little while!

A quick update on the past few weeks:

  • I finally beat my jet lag
  • There was a heatwave in the UK
  • I attended 3 weddings in 3 weeks
  • My parents visited me in Edinburgh
  • I hung out with a friend from New Jersey who is also called Kim!
  • I went to the doctors then went to work and got sent home because I was too ill (the doctors didn’t prescribe me anything…)

21:59

I am back! On the 31st May I flew out to Los Angeles and for two weeks I toured around Southern and Northern California. In SoCal I visited Disneyland, Griffith Observatory, Getty Center, Laguna Beach and other spots. Up in NorCal I went to San Francisco city centre, Fisherman’s Wharf, Exploratorium, Twin Peaks, Coit Tower, Union Square, the Great Mall in San Jose and many other places.

My trips abroad are always jam packed so I often come home feeling like I need a holiday after my holiday! Whilst physically and mentally draining, the whole experience was a lot of fun and it was amazing to travel around and explore new (and old) places.

It has taken me almost a whole week to get rid of my jet lag. I returned to work the day after I flew back from the US, and I struggled to keep my eyes open during work hours. I have been waking up in the middle of the night for the past week, and also took long naps in the evenings to compensate for the lack of sleep. I managed to sleep through the night yesterday so hopefully my jet lag has been curbed!

23:05

Recently I have had to commute to the Perth office over a couple of days to cover staff holidays, so I spent some time with friends in Dundee to cut down on travel time. During my car journeys I had time to reflect on my own development within my job as well as my self growth.

When I was first offered my position I was a fresh university graduate with little experience in the working environment. Almost two years later have passed since then and my responsibilities within the role have doubled (probably even tripled). Stressful times hit me every week and problems arise that need to be unpicked. Outside of work I often worry about not having enough time to complete a project, or fret over a stressful encounter at work. Stressful situations aside, I am very thankful to be in a workplace which appreciates my work and to work with like-minded individuals.

Never did I intend to find a job in this industry let alone still be within the same company (almost) two years later. Whilst it is important to provide a living for yourself, it is also important to enjoy your job (to an extent). If my job had been mind-numbingly repetitive and ‘soul-destroying’; I would have left a long time ago. I am thankful for colleagues who are encouraging and a pleasure to work with, and for a workplace which I feel comfortable in.

22:14

I never used to be the kind of person who set reminders on my phone but I have found it to be helpful in my new found busy lifestyle.

Amidst making plans, travelling, exchanging currency, and weddings, there are simpler, less interesting tasks. I found myself entering things like ‘put card in bag’ and ‘get lunch from fridge’. These silly little tasks have increasingly become things which I will easily forget because of my hectic lifestyle.

In recent weeks I have become much more stressed from work, so much so that my body is close to giving point. My sleeping pattern has worsened yet my focus on work has increased, and my work outs have risen in frequency. My personal projects are productive and I have managed to balance a multitude of things. I am due to go to the doctors tomorrow morning so hopefully I am able to cross off any illnesses and place the blame solely on stress. A reminder to always put emphasis on taking care of yourself and your own wellbeing!

22:03

Why is it that when you know you have time to sleep that you feel at your most awake?

This bank holiday has messed up my sleeping pattern. I woke up this morning at 04:30 and stayed wide awake until 06:45, before sleeping on till 09:30. My natural body clock is usually very good at letting me get a good nights rest, and at waking me up for work.

I have not seen 05:00 since my student days so the stillness of the morning was quite refreshing (albeit tiring in the long run).

23:15

Last weekend I was able to return home to visit my family for a few days. Though it was a short ‘long weekend’, it was definitely worth it to travel 5.5 hours home and back just to see them. I miss simple home comforts now and again so quick bursts of home satisfy my yearnings.

I am thankful for time with family and friends and the rare times I get to return home. It makes me cherish those times all the more.

22:47

After a hectic week of work and play I have finally had a chance to let my body rest. For the past week an Australian friend has been visiting Edinburgh so everyday has been eventful. I went to work during the day and met my friend in the evenings which resulted in long days out of the house. We also helped to prepare for our mutual friend’s wedding over the weekend (making favours, decorations and organising schedules). Over Sunday and Monday I attended wedding festivities and taxied friends around in my car.

Today I went back to work feeling very drained and ended up being quite unproductive. After a long Monday of wedding activities and the previous week of work and play, the tiredness finally caught up with my body. When I got home from work I had a 3 hour nap, skipped dinner and now I am ready to sleep again.

As much as I love being busy sometimes, I also need time to rest and have some time to myself. Being physically out of the house every day and night is exhausting! I think my body is telling me to slow down and take it easy, however I seem to have a million things planned for the coming months. I am grateful in advance for any opportunities that I get to stay at home!

22:09

After a little break away in the sun; I have returned to normality and my usual routine. While being on holiday is normally a time to rest and relax, I have found that my body has not recharged itself until I got back into my routine. The excitement of being on holiday and exploring a new country takes its toll. I found myself getting stressed with planning both before and during the holiday, and ended up waking a lot earlier than planned every day I was away. Amidst long days out and coupled with broken sleep I was left exhausted by the time I hopped on the plane home. Not long after take off I completely knocked out and fell asleep!

After being back to work for a week my body has finally gotten back into my usual sleeping routine. I have managed to get back into swimming after a little hiatus, and also changed my eating habits back from the late Spanish meal times. Change is good every now and again but it is always comforting to come back to a ‘normal’ lifestyle.

21:29

As someone who is more on the introverted side of the introvert/extrovert scale, I am always looking for ways in which I can feel more comfortable in the general public. While I can walk down a busy street without feeling anxiety, I often have panicky feelings or pangs of social awkwardness when faced with crowds (both strangers and people I know).

When faced with a situation in which I have to speak to an acquaintance, I tend to stay quite quiet and avoid making conversation where possible. I am not a fan of small talk! On Monday mornings I seldom ask colleagues how their weekends went (not out of rudeness but out of a slight feeling of uncomfortableness). I think that this sometimes stems from my weekend habits. On Sundays I tend to take the day to recharge my batteries and have some alone time. Come Monday morning; the loud dynamics of colleagues chatting is sometimes difficult to emulate. I work hardest when it is quiet and peaceful; however office etiquette calls for bonding with colleagues and sharing interests. With a naturally quiet character it can sometimes be difficult to interact with those who have a much louder personality.

Recently in a monthly meeting with my team leader, she told me of an observation she had made of my character. She noticed that I had been more open and vocal, engaging in more conversations with colleagues and generally having a more outgoing demeanour. She seemed pretty pleased that I was engaging with my colleagues more (not that I was ever a completely silent worker), and that I seemed happier as of late. I had not actively changed my behaviour in the past month so it was strange yet satisfying to hear this observation from a colleague. I am pleased to realise that my comfort levels in interacting with others has increased (if only a little), and that I don’t give off a socially awkward vibe (as much as I think I do). Sometimes all an introvert needs is the quiet reassurance that they are doing okay.

22:19

Is it really almost the end of January already? The days are flying by!

For me January is never an exciting month. After a hectic December I normally spend January sinking back into my normal day-to-day routine. Work is the same old grind: waking up to an alarm, taking the bus to the office, working throughout the day, and then returning home in the evening. Leisure times remain similar: reading, blogging thoughts, watching shows and Youtube videos, swimming, and occasionally babysitting my relatives.

January sometimes feels like the filler month before the year really gets going. I have plans scheduled for the rest of the year however my January calendar page remains empty. People talk about new beginnings and starting afresh in January, but for me it is a return to the old. It is a return to what I know, to how I have lived in the past, and is the waiting room for the rest of the year to start.