22:09

After a little break away in the sun; I have returned to normality and my usual routine. While being on holiday is normally a time to rest and relax, I have found that my body has not recharged itself until I got back into my routine. The excitement of being on holiday and exploring a new country takes its toll. I found myself getting stressed with planning both before and during the holiday, and ended up waking a lot earlier than planned every day I was away. Amidst long days out and coupled with broken sleep I was left exhausted by the time I hopped on the plane home. Not long after take off I completely knocked out and fell asleep!

After being back to work for a week my body has finally gotten back into my usual sleeping routine. I have managed to get back into swimming after a little hiatus, and also changed my eating habits back from the late Spanish meal times. Change is good every now and again but it is always comforting to come back to a ‘normal’ lifestyle.

23:08

A brand new year has begun! Happy (belated) new year!

Now that a new year is upon us it is often the time where people make resolutions and changes in their life. I am not one of those people. While a new year is frequently considered as the perfect time to adopt a new lifestyle, I have never sought after change in this time period.

Change is not limited to time constraints. Embracing a new diet or work out is not restricted to the beginning of the year. Adopting a new way of life does not have to come about just because the previous year is over. Change can come about at any time of the year. You can wake up one day and want to be a whole different person. You can change yourself in an innumerable amount of ways at any given time. A resolution can arise from a change in thought, and it can be kept for weeks, months, years or not at all.

Change is what you make of it.

22:36

‘People don’t want things to make sense. Know why? Because if they did we’d all be in trouble. You drive too fast down the street because it feels good or you’re in a hurry. If things made sense, a cop would stop you every single time and give you a ticket. But what happens when a cop *does* stop you? You get angry and say that’s not fair! But sure it’s fair. It also makes sense. If life made sense we’d either behave ourselves a hell of a lot better or be walking around scared, waiting for the punishment due us for all the bad things we do every day. We want life to make sense only when it’s to our advantage. Otherwise, it’s interesting not knowing what’s coming next. Maybe you’ll get heads, maybe tails. People do wrong things all the time and get away with it. Good people get their neck broken. Would you prefer it if only the good people got rewarded? How often are you good? How often do you deserve the good *you* get? Wouldn’t you rather have an interesting life than a fair one?’

Jonathan Carroll

01:52

‘Sometimes the changes are good. Sometimes you think they’re good and you end up disappointed. Other times you think life has handed you a lemon and it turns out to be a diamond. And there are other times when it just is what it is. It’s not what you wanted, but there’s nothing you can do about it, so you just accept what’s happened and go on.’

Melodie Ramone – After Forever Ends