Today at church I listened to the most edifying sermon. I have been having a rocky time with my faith lately but today all the words seemed to be directed right at me. I recently opened up to a friend about how I had been feeling and afterwards I felt like a huge burden had been lifted off me. Hearing such a powerful message today made me realise that I have definitely been putting my faith on the back-burner.

I do not talk a lot about my faith or my relationship with God as it is something I deem very private. In an increasingly secular world it is something which I find hard to share with those around me. Going forward I hope to be more honest with myself in the areas of faith that I need to improve on.


Long time no post!

So what has been going on in my life for the past two weeks?

My first job ended up not being right for me so I left my 3 month contract a few weeks early. I have had the past week to reflect on this decision and to look for further job opportunities. I also took the week to focus on other things rather than my unemployed status. I have spent most of my evenings at church helping out with the training course for youths.

This morning I attended an interview session with a lawyer and solicitor firm. I was unsure about the position offered and did not know what to expect. Having only had one previous interview I felt very inexperienced and nervous about what questions would be asked. Luckily everything went very smoothly and I went home feeling calm about the whole event.

A few hours passed and I checked my junk emails and saw one from the company I had been interviewed by. Good news! I was offered a post with the company! I could not be happier with this opportunity to work in a field more related to my Criminology degree.

I thank God for this blessed opening for me and for guiding my interview processes to be so smooth. I have been so fortunate to find jobs in both interviews I attended fresh out of university. I hope that this is a long term endeavour for me and that I enjoy it more than my previous job.


My exam on Friday went smoothly, thank God! I also handed in my ethics application form the same day (all signed and approved by my supervisor).

It feels so good to have finished this term and to not have to worry about university work until the new year, although I know the next lot of work will be the hardest yet. It feels amazing to have earned this break and I am free for the holidays!

I hope everyone else in shoes similar to mine can reach their point of relief soon! There really is nothing better than knowing you have time off from responsibilities.


‘Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you’re here.’


Everything is in God’s hands; so why should we need to worry? Entrust all to Him.


‘I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.’

(Philippians 4:13)

I have often been told, ‘you can do it because you’re you’, meaning people know that I can hold my own, that I can deal with anything thrown at me and I have an inner strength that others may lack. Thus far I have also thought the same thing of myself. I am headstrong, stubborn and self-reliant.

However recent events have made me reconsider my own ways of coping. I realise that I am not invincible nor am I weak, but I cannot do things solely on my own nor do I need a hoard of people to comfort and console me.

I am a Christian and yet though I attend church every week, I find it hard to rely on anyone but myself. This week has been a learning process: learning to trust, learning to rely on God fully and learning to entrust my problems to the Lord. I am slowly getting there. I hope by the end of this church training course I can get back to a place where my mind is content and my heart is no longer burdened with anger and sadness. However if I don’t quite make it to that point, I would like to know that I am making progress in getting there and that God is abiding with me every step of this difficult way.