Looking and applying for jobs is taking its toll on me. I know that finding a job takes time and effort but already I am feeling discouraged by the whole process.

I sometimes wish I could fast forward my life; even just a tiny bit. I want to know what my life will be like a few months down the line. Will I still be unemployed? Will I be living in Edinburgh? So many unanswerable questions coursing through my head right now. Nevertheless the uncertainty of life is what makes it great. It is the same thing which gives us spontaneous roadtrips and surprise parties, as well as the dread of not knowing.


I like spontaneous days out and trying new things. As much as I like to have set plans and schedules, days of spontaneity also hold a place in my heart. I like to enter details into my phone calendar of where I was, who I was with, from what time to what time. My holidays in 2014 had itineraries that were meticulously planned. Whilst organisation makes me feel like I am in control, sometimes not knowing is a better choice.