22:02

Woah! It has been a long long time since I have posted anything on here…

So what’s new?

Not all that much if I’m honest! At work I have had incredibly busy stints and also lulls in the flow. I have also switched to doing a later shift every 3 weeks which offsets my weekly routine a little. After I get home from a later shift I feel like I do not have enough time to fully relax before I have to get ready for bed and prepare for the next morning. Work aside, my personal life has been very much the same. I am still swimming regularly and have recently taking up jogging again as it gives me valuable time to think. I have had family and friends visiting from all over the world so there have been many times where we all gather together and enjoy each others’ company. I am still working on putting together my Los Angeles and San Francisco footage. I hope to get at least one video edited and uploaded in the month of September though! Autumn is for staying in, getting cosy and chilling with a hot drink right? Perfect editing conditions!

Although I am not posting as regularly as I had hoped, I will leave little updates here and there as assurance that I am okay!

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23:05

Recently I have had to commute to the Perth office over a couple of days to cover staff holidays, so I spent some time with friends in Dundee to cut down on travel time. During my car journeys I had time to reflect on my own development within my job as well as my self growth.

When I was first offered my position I was a fresh university graduate with little experience in the working environment. Almost two years later have passed since then and my responsibilities within the role have doubled (probably even tripled). Stressful times hit me every week and problems arise that need to be unpicked. Outside of work I often worry about not having enough time to complete a project, or fret over a stressful encounter at work. Stressful situations aside, I am very thankful to be in a workplace which appreciates my work and to work with like-minded individuals.

Never did I intend to find a job in this industry let alone still be within the same company (almost) two years later. Whilst it is important to provide a living for yourself, it is also important to enjoy your job (to an extent). If my job had been mind-numbingly repetitive and ‘soul-destroying’; I would have left a long time ago. I am thankful for colleagues who are encouraging and a pleasure to work with, and for a workplace which I feel comfortable in.

21:29

As someone who is more on the introverted side of the introvert/extrovert scale, I am always looking for ways in which I can feel more comfortable in the general public. While I can walk down a busy street without feeling anxiety, I often have panicky feelings or pangs of social awkwardness when faced with crowds (both strangers and people I know).

When faced with a situation in which I have to speak to an acquaintance, I tend to stay quite quiet and avoid making conversation where possible. I am not a fan of small talk! On Monday mornings I seldom ask colleagues how their weekends went (not out of rudeness but out of a slight feeling of uncomfortableness). I think that this sometimes stems from my weekend habits. On Sundays I tend to take the day to recharge my batteries and have some alone time. Come Monday morning; the loud dynamics of colleagues chatting is sometimes difficult to emulate. I work hardest when it is quiet and peaceful; however office etiquette calls for bonding with colleagues and sharing interests. With a naturally quiet character it can sometimes be difficult to interact with those who have a much louder personality.

Recently in a monthly meeting with my team leader, she told me of an observation she had made of my character. She noticed that I had been more open and vocal, engaging in more conversations with colleagues and generally having a more outgoing demeanour. She seemed pretty pleased that I was engaging with my colleagues more (not that I was ever a completely silent worker), and that I seemed happier as of late. I had not actively changed my behaviour in the past month so it was strange yet satisfying to hear this observation from a colleague. I am pleased to realise that my comfort levels in interacting with others has increased (if only a little), and that I don’t give off a socially awkward vibe (as much as I think I do). Sometimes all an introvert needs is the quiet reassurance that they are doing okay.

22:47

Today was a ‘walk in the rain’ kind of day. Albeit I only walked from work to the bus stop, and then from the bus stop to my house, the rain pouring down felt good in a way. It felt like a cleansing of the stress and anxiety that I have been feeling lately. In that short walk I felt the raindrops patter down onto my hair, slowly bead on my forehead and drip down my nose. In nature’s weather extremities my life feels calmer and more at ease. My problems seem lessened and are forgotten about for a brief moment.

As the weather has been miserable lately I have been spending a lot more time indoors compared to a month ago. I have not been able to walk home from work in the sun, nor have I been able to bring myself to leave the comforts of my own room for fear of facing the elements. I know these sound like excuses however I look to change them this month.

My interaction with nature has dropped considerably. I am always plugged in and tuned out. I sit at a desk for long periods of my day. I prefer to look at my phone than at the world. Here’s to the hopeful, little changes and inspiration that come from a walk in the rain.

17:16

Apparently it has been over a month since my last blog post. I am neither surprised nor disappointed in myself for leaving my site dormant. The past month has brought challenges and numerous events into my life.

Here is a lowdown of my month:-

  • I passed my driving theory test in late May
  • I reconnected with an old friend
  • I attended the Meadows Festival
  • I ran a 5km fun run called Gung Ho (inflatable obstacles and injuries galore)
  • I attended a friend’s wedding celebrations in Newcastle/Beamish Hall
  • I sang in my church choir for our annual Spiritual Convocation
  • I carried on with my swimming and got a lot better! (I brag because I have always been an awful swimmer)
  • I went out with my work colleagues and drank too much
  • I treated myself to many new purchases (RayBan sunglasses and this Macbook to name a few)
  • I encountered work politics
  • I deactivated my Facebook account

I had a problem with my old laptop after upgrading to Windows 10 thus rendering my site an orphan for a while. However I am connected again and will hopefully be remembering to post here now and again. It is good to be back.

 

22:01

When I work an earlier shift I somehow feel fresher and more ready for work. I set my alarm for an earlier time and leave the house in time to catch the morning brightening up. My morning commute is relaxed and peaceful. I listen to upbeat music to wake myself up, and watch people get on with their morning routines. I am the first one to arrive at my office which gives me time to settle down before the hustle and bustle of the day.

I have never seen myself as a morning person but I have grown to allocate my night time for sleeping. The arrival of a new day is not the worst thing any more.

22:26

The first week back to work after a holiday is always the hardest. Add in staff illness, throw in a few projects, plus early starts and late finishes due to over time, and you will have one tired employee.

After what seemed like the longest week; I finally have some time to myself. During my working week my evenings are filled with: dinner, social media check, shower, lunch preparation and then an early night. It does not deviate much because this routine keeps me feeling the most refreshed for work the next day. This weekend will be spent recharging before another long week of work.

Current feeling: drained and aching.

22:57

I am safely back in my home town in the comforts of my childhood bedroom! The last few days have been manic with travelling, friends and visitors, and family gatherings.

I spent much of my long weekend catching up with people who I do not get to see for the majority of the year. I must have answered the, “So where do you work now?” question at least 15 times. Sometimes I feel like I have lost that connection with my friends and family back at home, however there are also times where it feels like I never left.

I spent Sunday afternoon through till Monday in the lovely city of Cambridge. A friend recently moved out there for work so a group of 10 went out there to visit and chill out. When we get together it reminds me of how much we have all grown, as individuals and together as a group. While some of us have moved away from our home towns, it is reassuring to see everyone growing and developing into self-sufficient adults in their own ways. It is comforting to know that my friends are doing well.