21:34

Today is my WordPress anniversary! I’m not entirely sure how many years ago I started running this blog, but I am definitely proud of how far it has come. While I find myself with less words to write, I am thankful for an open yet safe space where I can share and relieve my mind.

This week of work has sped by! April has always been a ‘nothing’ month for me. In education days it was the month of Easter break and revision for exams, however now it holds no significance. Work life remains work life. As April comes to a close I wonder what the month of May will bring!

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21:25

Sometimes it is difficult to realise in the moment that time passes by so quickly. The year has already led us to April and I wonder where the time has gone. What has happened in recent months?

In February I met my friend’s baby girl for the first time when she was just two weeks old! I think it was the first time I have held a baby so young and it was such a precious experience. I survived the snow storm which hit the UK at the end of the month! I ended up house bound for two days as there was a red weather warning, but luckily I was well prepared with food provisions.

Into March I experimented with cooking more and then went to Australia for two weeks! It was my first time flying abroad solo so it was definitely a learning experience. I visited Melbourne and Brisbane and thoroughly loved both cities. I petted and fed kangaroos and emus, held koalas and caught up with far away friends. I travelled the Great Ocean Road and went down to the Gold Coast. I swam in the same pool the Scottish Commonwealth swim team were training at, and ate tons of good food! I explored the cities in blazing heat (and the sun burn and tan lines I still nurse prove it!) I enjoyed my Easter weekend in Portsmouth in a beach house with 13 of my childhood friends, and celebrating the wedding of my former RE teacher. I woke up with the beach on my doorstep, the smell of the sea and the wind in my hair.

April has brought be back to my normal routine of work which I am appreciative of. It has been a hectic couple of months of which I am thankful. On Monday I attended a family dinner/BBQ with my aunties, uncles, cousins, nieces and nephews. The first BBQ of the season!

A busy lifestyle has meant I have less time to sit back and reflect on these events, but a recent work experience has taught me that I need to make time for self reflection. It is in the times of thinking back that a person is able to grow and develop, to learn from past experiences and to further their character.

22:29

In recent weeks I have noticed how quickly the days are going by. In my regular work week schedule I find myself baffled at the arrival of another Friday in seemingly quick successions. I don’t know fully if it’s because I’ve been busier in 2018 or if I’m making the most out of my time, or a mix of the two.

As we draw closer to the middle of February I can safely say that 2018 has been good to me. I go to bed each night with a tiredness in my body that signifies I worked and played hard, and also with a content feeling in my heart. I am so thankful for this year already and I strive to have this heart of thanksgiving for the rest of the year.

20:25

Currently undergoing trying and testing times due to a family member being in hospital for major surgery and recovery. It made me reconsider the things I hold dear to me. Last week I took an unexpected day off work to go to the hospital with my family. Previously I would have considered how my colleagues would feel picking up my work in my absence, or the fact that I have used all my annual leave already. However I found that I did not think about work that whole day because my heart was concerned with the matters of my family. Worrying about trivial things is not healthy or beneficial. Yes, we need to consider these things in the long run but it is also important that we can drop them at a moment’s notice.

22:25

Just checking in for a quick life update:

  • I’ve been given more responsibilities at work so things are hectic now and again, but I am happy for a change in pace and for more challenging tasks.
  • Swimming has become something I really enjoy and it helps me unwind. This week I went swimming after work on 4/5 days and my body is feeling great!
  • Catch ups with friends (even if for only a short while) build back those happy feelings in my heart. Forever blessed to be surrounded by lovely, supportive people.

 

20:36

I am currently reading The Kabul Beauty School by Deborah Rodriguez. Admittedly, this has been a book that I began reading at the start of the year and then left unfinished. Months later I picked it up again, read a couple of chapters and then left it until now.

While I still have a penchant for reading; my leisure time has adjusted to fit in with my working lifestyle. After work I try and exercise, catch up with friends and family, as well as edit video footage and keep up with my current shows. I find myself too tired to read by the time I crawl into bed; which leaves me with a small window on Sundays to catch up on some reading. On Sundays I try and make time to go to a cafe by myself (either to edit or to read). While I do miss more carefree days spent reading book after book, the nostalgic yet reassuring feelings do return when I settle down to read. It really is amazing how books can shape and mold a person through the written word.

22:02

Woah! It has been a long long time since I have posted anything on here…

So what’s new?

Not all that much if I’m honest! At work I have had incredibly busy stints and also lulls in the flow. I have also switched to doing a later shift every 3 weeks which offsets my weekly routine a little. After I get home from a later shift I feel like I do not have enough time to fully relax before I have to get ready for bed and prepare for the next morning. Work aside, my personal life has been very much the same. I am still swimming regularly and have recently taking up jogging again as it gives me valuable time to think. I have had family and friends visiting from all over the world so there have been many times where we all gather together and enjoy each others’ company. I am still working on putting together my Los Angeles and San Francisco footage. I hope to get at least one video edited and uploaded in the month of September though! Autumn is for staying in, getting cosy and chilling with a hot drink right? Perfect editing conditions!

Although I am not posting as regularly as I had hoped, I will leave little updates here and there as assurance that I am okay!

23:05

Recently I have had to commute to the Perth office over a couple of days to cover staff holidays, so I spent some time with friends in Dundee to cut down on travel time. During my car journeys I had time to reflect on my own development within my job as well as my self growth.

When I was first offered my position I was a fresh university graduate with little experience in the working environment. Almost two years later have passed since then and my responsibilities within the role have doubled (probably even tripled). Stressful times hit me every week and problems arise that need to be unpicked. Outside of work I often worry about not having enough time to complete a project, or fret over a stressful encounter at work. Stressful situations aside, I am very thankful to be in a workplace which appreciates my work and to work with like-minded individuals.

Never did I intend to find a job in this industry let alone still be within the same company (almost) two years later. Whilst it is important to provide a living for yourself, it is also important to enjoy your job (to an extent). If my job had been mind-numbingly repetitive and ‘soul-destroying’; I would have left a long time ago. I am thankful for colleagues who are encouraging and a pleasure to work with, and for a workplace which I feel comfortable in.

21:29

As someone who is more on the introverted side of the introvert/extrovert scale, I am always looking for ways in which I can feel more comfortable in the general public. While I can walk down a busy street without feeling anxiety, I often have panicky feelings or pangs of social awkwardness when faced with crowds (both strangers and people I know).

When faced with a situation in which I have to speak to an acquaintance, I tend to stay quite quiet and avoid making conversation where possible. I am not a fan of small talk! On Monday mornings I seldom ask colleagues how their weekends went (not out of rudeness but out of a slight feeling of uncomfortableness). I think that this sometimes stems from my weekend habits. On Sundays I tend to take the day to recharge my batteries and have some alone time. Come Monday morning; the loud dynamics of colleagues chatting is sometimes difficult to emulate. I work hardest when it is quiet and peaceful; however office etiquette calls for bonding with colleagues and sharing interests. With a naturally quiet character it can sometimes be difficult to interact with those who have a much louder personality.

Recently in a monthly meeting with my team leader, she told me of an observation she had made of my character. She noticed that I had been more open and vocal, engaging in more conversations with colleagues and generally having a more outgoing demeanour. She seemed pretty pleased that I was engaging with my colleagues more (not that I was ever a completely silent worker), and that I seemed happier as of late. I had not actively changed my behaviour in the past month so it was strange yet satisfying to hear this observation from a colleague. I am pleased to realise that my comfort levels in interacting with others has increased (if only a little), and that I don’t give off a socially awkward vibe (as much as I think I do). Sometimes all an introvert needs is the quiet reassurance that they are doing okay.